Update

I haven't been on blogger in a while and I just wanted to update, the past 8 months have been a tough time. Last January my Father passed away, that was a really bad time for my family. But were moving on and doing better, I am attending beauty school and, moving into an apartment with my fiancé Anthony. I’m very excited to be starting my life with him and out two dogs Bullet and Striker and out kitten Bell , what a combination .

Describing Me

This simple word describes the Love I have for my family , my friends and my amazing boyfriend. My family has never been the loving hugging type of family , we never exchanged the words “I Love You” on a daily bases. But now that were have hit a rough patch in our lives we never leave the room without saying I Love You , and even if we don't hear those three words from each other we know that were family and we Love each other. The Love I have for my Friends is great , I don't trash talk my friends nor do I let them trash talk each other . When its been three of us for years it gets toughs cause you get mad than you tell your friend that she said this and she said that , but I have loads of friends and I stick up for them all . The Love I have for Anthony is different , I have never really had a relationship until I met him . I wasn't sure about the “I Love You” but after about five months of dating I knew that I did love . He makes me feel happy and beautiful , he's always there when I need him . He's just like my best friend ..... but my boyfriend lol! :)

Describing Me

So this car in this Picture is a 1986 Caprice Classic , this look just like my car . I bought this car about a year ago , I saved up $350.00 . It was $ 900 , my older brother Scott paid the rest . Some of my friends call my car a piece of Junk , but I beg to differ . This car might be huge and not that nice looking but in a way its me , my life is crazy and messed up and sometimes it just or goes flat. Just like my car , sure there's a downer its a gas hog and the fuel injector need to be cleaned and the carb go dry alot . But I love my car and there is a good thing to having a boat your always safe .

Describing Me

This picture describes my love for children , I have grown up in a daycare since I was 5. Out of every age we watched babies are my favorite , holding a baby when your mad or upset actually calms you down. I remember when my friend John died , it was late summer school was about to start . I was crushed when I got the calls , it was nap time at the daycare . I held a baby the entire time , she didn't fight me its like she knew something was wrong and didn't mind comforting me or me comforting her . I realized that you can learn loads from children , I learn something knew every day with my nieces and nephews . I have nine of them Matt, Lilly , Noah, Tosha , Micheal , Sam , Aubrey , Rya and Tristan . They range from 13 to 2 , I love them all very much .

Describing Me

I love reading, I didn't really like it in the beginning but I love it now . I feel like my life is like a book yeah the past is written down but my future .....the pen is in my hands I can write what I want . When I'm stressed out I can go grab a book and after reading the first few pages I'm hooked and relaxed , books can take you anywhere you wanna go . That's a bonus , I do like romance novels and action adventure books . The Twilight Saga , Vampire chronicles , Charmed , Percy Jackson and the Olympians , Harry Potter . Those kinds of books :)


P.S got this picture form http://history.uwo.ca/publications/ they have some really good pics nice site :)

Lost in Thoughts

Okay so if any of you know that when your dealing with something hard you need to talk to someone get some positive feed back , so that's why I'm going to share my story .

So the last four months of my life have been the worst in my life, my dad hasn't been home for more than a week since Thanksgiving . about ten years ago my father was diagnosed with acute pancreatitis for you who don't know Pancreatitis is inflammation or infection of the pancreas. The pancreas, a gland located behind the stomach, releases the hormones insulin and glucagon and substances that help with digestion. Than 2 years ago his kidneys failed ,kidney failure is the sudden loss of the ability of the kidneys to remove waste and concentrate urine without losing electrolytes. Well last Thanksgiving was the first thanksgiving he's spent with his family he's normal missed it every year for ten years now and this December was the first Christmas he's been gone . On December 24 Christmas eve my mother and I hit the road with my dad at 3:00 a.m he was admitted in the hospital , Christmas day around 12:00 he came home not healed fully . December 26 we got a call from an ambulance driver , we all were in Evansville at my aunt Judy's house for a party my dad had called an ambulance and begged the driver to call his wife . My mom left and met them at the hospital , three days later her came home and two after that he left again . January 15 I was awakened by my older est sister tossing a pair of jeans at me and telling me to grab my cell phone my charger , my brother in-law had went to my aunts hows grabbed my little brother and his son came back to get Laura and Sarah and myself . We were in Evansville at the Hospital in less than an hour Jesse and Matt my brother and my nephew went to Scott's my other brothers house . The whole ride there no one would really tell me what was wrong until i screamed "I'm not a kid anymore I'm 17 years old "Laura told me they moved dad to ICU ( intensive care unit) . He had gotten blood poisoning , and they found a mass in his Liver and if he had cancer of the pancreas . His pancreas is so swollen it can't be touched so they were did a biopsy on the liver because if he did have cancer it would spread to the liver next . The test came back they can't be for sure but there's not cancer , he was moved from the hospital to a rehab . But now he's slow loosing it the other day I was sitting in talking to him and he started talking to my grandma rose his mother who has been dead for 6 years now . It's been rough, but now he's moved to IU med centrer and I hope thay can help him

I love you !

You Just Keep On Loving Me


No matter what I look like,
Whether pretty or plain you see,
When I’m all dressed up or in PJs,
You just keep on loving me.


Sometimes I’m happy and cheerful;
Other times grumpy and sad;
Your absolute love never wavers,
Whether I’m grouchy or glad.


Sometimes I try to change you;
And sometimes I criticize;
But I feel something melting within me,
When I see all the love in your eyes.


Your tolerance is endless,
However I choose to be;
Having my love makes you happy,
So you just keep on loving me.


And that is why, my darling,
Whatever else I do,
One thing is sure; no matter what,
I’ll just keep on loving you.


By Joanna Fuchs