Lost in Thoughts

Okay so if any of you know that when your dealing with something hard you need to talk to someone get some positive feed back , so that's why I'm going to share my story .

So the last four months of my life have been the worst in my life, my dad hasn't been home for more than a week since Thanksgiving . about ten years ago my father was diagnosed with acute pancreatitis for you who don't know Pancreatitis is inflammation or infection of the pancreas. The pancreas, a gland located behind the stomach, releases the hormones insulin and glucagon and substances that help with digestion. Than 2 years ago his kidneys failed ,kidney failure is the sudden loss of the ability of the kidneys to remove waste and concentrate urine without losing electrolytes. Well last Thanksgiving was the first thanksgiving he's spent with his family he's normal missed it every year for ten years now and this December was the first Christmas he's been gone . On December 24 Christmas eve my mother and I hit the road with my dad at 3:00 a.m he was admitted in the hospital , Christmas day around 12:00 he came home not healed fully . December 26 we got a call from an ambulance driver , we all were in Evansville at my aunt Judy's house for a party my dad had called an ambulance and begged the driver to call his wife . My mom left and met them at the hospital , three days later her came home and two after that he left again . January 15 I was awakened by my older est sister tossing a pair of jeans at me and telling me to grab my cell phone my charger , my brother in-law had went to my aunts hows grabbed my little brother and his son came back to get Laura and Sarah and myself . We were in Evansville at the Hospital in less than an hour Jesse and Matt my brother and my nephew went to Scott's my other brothers house . The whole ride there no one would really tell me what was wrong until i screamed "I'm not a kid anymore I'm 17 years old "Laura told me they moved dad to ICU ( intensive care unit) . He had gotten blood poisoning , and they found a mass in his Liver and if he had cancer of the pancreas . His pancreas is so swollen it can't be touched so they were did a biopsy on the liver because if he did have cancer it would spread to the liver next . The test came back they can't be for sure but there's not cancer , he was moved from the hospital to a rehab . But now he's slow loosing it the other day I was sitting in talking to him and he started talking to my grandma rose his mother who has been dead for 6 years now . It's been rough, but now he's moved to IU med centrer and I hope thay can help him